So it’s three weeks into the new academic year and I still haven’t stepped foot into a school, but that is ok!
As I mentioned earlier in the summer, I recently made the difficult decision to leave my full time job to focus on my health and that is exactly what I’ve been doing. I have taken time to refocus, decide what I want and most importantly come to terms with the impact fibromyalgia is having on my life currently.
I have read so many stories of people having to give up their dream job and I feel for those people more and more everyday. But I want to say it is ok. It is ok to be angry, it is ok to be sad, it is even ok to feel lost. But it is not ok to blame yourself. You didn’t ask for this chronic illness, I certainly did not. But you have to make the best of it. We all have ups and downs and the last two and half years have been a struggle for me but I am getting back to my old self. It takes time to find yourself again.
Over the last few days I have been trying to find the positives in currently not having any work:
- I can actually spend time with family and friends without worrying about tomorrow
- I have been able to go to baby groups with my niece
- I have been able to do housework!!! (to my husbands shock)
- I have paced myself (sort of)
- I have taken time to look after me
- I have started up a business
The world works in mysterious ways and I do believe somethings happen for a reason, even if it only ever feels like bad things happen. I am looking forward to getting my first supply job, I feel like my passion for teaching is returning and hopefully this will be a way for me to continue doing the job I love and looking after myself at the same time.
Keep a look out for my next post about my new business, or check out my social media now to see some of the things I’ve been up to.